missing you*

As they say in the movies
“it seems as if we spend most of our lives saying goodbyes”
And it’s true, you’re leaving again
Farther than just Singapore
I feel sad – the distance is saddening
I’m all alone as I think of you – in desolation
Days drag, hour after hour – torture
How I miss seeing you – hearing you
It’s amazing that I’m feeling lonely
Even when I’m being jostled in a crowd
Cos people are just people, not you
I miss you so much I can’t concentrate
I think only of you – constantly – day and night
When I feel emptiness around me
I get that funny lump in my throat
And that strange craving as if in hunger
To see you or even hear you
There’s no cure, I tried occupying myself
Sleeping, working, it doesn’t really work
It comes back all again – like a slap in the face
A pang of emptiness, makes me feel like giving up
Everything doesn’t seem worth doing – lost inspiration
I want to cry – but can’t – I’m a guy
I want to talk – but you’re not around
So I just sit and mope – feeling real lousy
Never knew how much you meant to me
Didn’t know I liked you this much before
Guess I was wrong about us, about me
I’m not as strong as I seem to think
I can’t really face the world without you
The waiting seems forever but it opened my eyes
If I miss you so much
How much more must I need you
Come back. End my misery. Fill my need.






* written in the distant past